So the day is dark tho the sun is shinning. My heart is cold and my brain is frying. Your love is my drug and I need a fix. My arm is ready for the needle is ready for it to pierce the crimson red of passion. Will I ever get my fix again???
Everyone who knows me knows I only really like old cars but this video I love just take out the car and it will be great lol :)
I can’t breath in the light but I long to have the sun on my face. So I fade into the dark and loneliness and it’s easier I know it to well. I go numb…
I came across small things that once was my daughters before her murder and I cry. It has been six years since her life was taken and for a time my life ended. I still go day to day fighting tears for the heart ache of a mother missing a child. I have four wonderful children now one by birth three adopted I am blessed but still feel like something is missing :( I came across a movie I bought her and I keep it because of the memories but still I see and still I cry, cry rivers and rivers of tears. I just want to throw it all away but can’t because it was her’s and they have good memories for me also. But the pain can be so much it can over take me some days and I can’t fight it!!! I lost today :(
So this past year was of course a mess and every year before that for a long time. This year did have it’s better ups when there was ups but still so many downs. I want this next year to have more ups then downs, to breath and be happy, and to get my health back in gear take control again. I hope everyone reading this will have a better year then the one before :)
